Internal Cause 
@menesrk via @gulnardaugust. 231 mnsrk.com // Being a #musician or #rapper wasn’t my goal as a child… I was just surrounded by it at a very early age so it has that “natural” vibe – but it was just a matter of #causation and #probability based on internal and external #environmental factors.
I was born at the cusp of a golden age, when #mastering the 4 elements of #hiphop culture for me was just another day. @KRSOne was #everything. My father is an #artist and #writer, and my brother was heavy with hip hop; so it wasn’t a conscious decision for me to be immersed in immense #data – I was just trained to remember tons of material and techniques related to the manipulation of #light and #sound. It is literally in my name.
I realized after many years – I was continuing a program that I had never consciously chose, and though I have been blessed to have this gift, it has been a heavy burden due to my not realizing any one thing to its fullest potential. It was a major goal for me to master the first 4 elements as a child – super important. It was Samurai level – Wu-Tang. By age 12 I was having ceremonies to bury my toys in favor of #breaking, #emceeing and #graffiti art. I wanted #turntables for a long time, pops wasn’t havin it, so instead, my mom bought me a guitar…
God bless Virginia Shuler. Ever since I got that guitar I haven’t been able to let it go – it was soothing to the soul – and I could rap on it. The first thing I studied was the blues. After a while I’d forgotten that I ever wanted to be a DJ; I’d begun to crave the catharsis of #performance, #production, and enjoy the financial benefits of #art, #design, #code, and expansive verbal capacity.
Eventually my ego dissolved and is no longer #attached to this idea of “making it” that everyone and I had projected onto me – so is that settling; to want to disappear into the woods? I’m more excited about making “it” – that crazy idea that I have never seen – that’s literally what keeps me alive day to day – the idea of sick innovations – Quantum Helix. Overtime my creative-introversion temperament has returned full swing – it never left, so I did get #Serato…
I’m so tired of #performing and have ambivalence to fame, so maybe I’d rather be a writer, for Drake. It is on my list to write a book – just not now. hmmm… On the other hand, introverted rockstars are always the best. So who are we anyway? when someone says “be yourself”, which self are they asking you to be? what does it mean to #knowthyself when one exists in a #quasi-quantum #superposition? #mmmm…. This has gotten long.. I guess I wrote a post. …mnsrk.com.